Hayley WOLF


Oh my goody goodness, I was not prepared for this! 10k, 26 obstacles fighting through woods, mud and ice cold water all in 8 degrees!

This is the reason that this post is a little late as I did the wolf run on Sunday and could not move my poorly limbs yesterday! I have been concentrating on moving as little as possible and protein for the past few days but I am aware that….I am not doing any exercise.

Today is my Friday though so over my mid-week end I will re train my brain with screeds, podcasts and books. I feel I have got soft in the mind as well as the body.

I have been inspired by RuPaul’s Podcast ‘What’s the Tee’ as he really didn’t get into gear until he was 29. He found a niche and made it glorious. I need to focus on my Charisma, Uniqueness, Nerve and Talent and be the best me šŸ™‚

Next Sunday’s post will include my helpful screeds and diet plan šŸ™‚

Love yourself x

Defensive Distractions

Looking back over the week I can see that my high, buzzing positivity has dissipated somewhat, and all my thoughts seemĀ to be going in different directions. It is not an excuse, it is a reflection. I have had several bumps in the week, planned and unexpected, and have lost sight over my current goal.

To be clear, my goal is to loseĀ 28lbsĀ and feel confident.

Drinking with new colleagues at a Diwali party may not trim the waistline but does help boost my confidence. I am happy to know I can still carry a conversation and I may perhaps be one step closer to the raconteur I someday hope to be.

I have not done my intended HIIT exercise because everyday I have chosen not to. I have not worn my Apple watch to count calories because I have subconsciously not charged it. I use the watch to work out how many treats I can eat. As my calorie restricted diet is set at 1250 per day I decided if I burnt 300 calories then I could eat them back. I have not done this which means I can eat what I like and disregard the calories. Yum.

I am afraid of success, losing weight and being beautiful. I am very comfortable in the middle, a face in a crowd, a statistic. I seeĀ it as hiding in plain sight. At the Diwali party I went all out in a Phase 8 dress, fancy hair and thought out make-up (a very special thing for me!) and I did not receive many compliments, even though I knew I looked better than I had. However,Ā instead of feeling self conscious that I did not look good I felt self conscious that I looked so good that other people felt jealous or envious. That the effort I put in to my look some how made them feel bad about themselves. The problem is that I don’t know where the line is, at what point does my effort tip the scales and cause distress?

These are my personal defence mechanisms and I believe working through them will help me achieve my goal and allow me to feel good.

Keep posted for next week’s update!

Love yourself x

Picking up where I left off

Happy Autumn Everyone!

This is my favourite season where the weather is a mix between bright and blustery, lending itself to lovely walks as the leaves change, or it is absolutely miserable and I don’t feel guilty about binge watching Crazy ex- girlfriend for the third time.

I ran the London Half Marathon on October 8th in just over 3 hours and have signed up for the Wolf Run in Leicester for 5th Novemebrrr…thermals at the ready! I am excited about this as it is with people from my new work place, but a little nervous as a few seem super fit and I am all about the fun! I am focusing on the positives though and believe it will be a great team building experience, and burn a few hundred calories.

Speaking of calories…

I have set myself a strict diet plan so I know what meals I will be eating every day, which takes the guess work (or stress work) out of calorie counting. All the meals are delicious and easy and it averages out to 1250 calories a day, putting me at a 3500 deficit for the week. On top of that I am also using my apple watch to track the amount of calories I burn through exercise and use this as aĀ guide for eating treats. I do take it with a pinch of salt though as I am aware they are not always accurate.

I currently weight 12st 12lb and my goal weight is 10st 10lb. I am hoping to lose 1lb per week until I reach that goal. My ultimate time limit is October 10th 2018 (My 30th Birthday).

I will be adding my meal plan and some hypnotherapy recordings to the blog at a later stage, please get in touch if you have any advice or questions.

Love yourself


Head Space

By telling myself that I hadn’t failed last week (because I drank all the wine and missed a run) I managed to go out and make great progress during week 5 of my couch to 10k. I was quite worried, thinking as I had missed that run I would be behind and had thrown my whole carefully planned schedule off kilter, and it made me feel worse. So instead I didn’t think about it, and when Monday rolled around I got up, put my kit on and went to the gym and ‘smashed it’ as those hopped up gym bunnies say.

It was great, after the run my problem was a teeny tiny little bump that I couldn’tĀ even see, whereas before the run it was a looming, mocking blockade with ‘I knew you would fail’ scrawled all over it. Ā I didn’t need to follow that plan to a T in order to achieve what I wanted. I just needed to stay positive, keep determined and just do it. Maybe the creators of that Nike slogan were also anxious and hungover with a deadline.

For those of you who are not aware, week 5 of the c210k trainer includes a 20 minute, non-stop run, which for a n00b is a tough pill to swallow. I bloody well went for it though, which has been a successful attitude throughout this journey so far. I downloaded a new ‘No such thing as a Fish’ podcast (thank you, Lizzie) and went at my own pace. I am still bad at stretching before a run, so I started off slowly until my limbs felt warm and fluid, it is a hard feeling to explain, but when you get there you feel like you were built to run, like a well-made machine. I have been running outdoors a bit more in this sunny weather as the London Parks Half Marathon won’t be on a treadmill, and it is rather pleasant. Let’s hope the sun sticks around over Easter. x


I have been quite pleased with my progress this week, I have fought the urge to lie in 2/3 times and ran a little faster and a little further. I have strengthened my mindfulness technique by focusing on a spot in front of me until it gets a little blurry which allows me to feel anchored. I then can focus on relaxing the muscles in my jaw, my back and feel my legs move more fluidly, taking my mind off of the fact that I am ‘working’ my body. My concern was how to feel anchored running outside with out a specific spot to focus on.

So on Friday I thought that I would postpone my run until Saturday and instead of running on a treadmill I would run, wild and free, along the Whistle Way in Narborough. I met my friend and her husband for dinner at The Gate in Osbaston on Friday evening, where we shared a bottle of wine with dinner, and agreed to continue the joviality at her home in Bosworth. On the way to their home we bought two bottles of wine. At her home we drank two bottles of wine. At some blurry point after this vodka and lemonade seemed like a rational idea and that is allĀ I remember from Friday evening.

Honestly I did not know what physical shape I was on Saturday morning. I woke up at 8am, stumbled to the shop and bought bacon, a cob and orange juice. Retreated home, consumed items and spent maybe 5 hours trying to keep still and wailing like a wounded Chewbacca. Needless to say I missed Saturday’s run, but I know now not to overindulge on wine and that mistakes can happen. I recovered, ate better and drank my body weight in water and am now ready for Week 4!


Staying on my feet

Week 2 of my couch to 10k training is now complete. I feel I did really well on my Wednesday run (2.43 miles in 35 minutes) but on my Friday run I felt a bit stiff, and on reflection probably looked a bit like an un-oiled tin man for the first ten minutes. This has taught me to s-t-r-e-t-c-h before every run, as stiff muscles make it unnecessarily harder.

I have been applying for jobs as often as I can this week as the charity I work for, the Royal Voluntary Service, has not confirmed they have the funding to keep me on after March 31st. This in itself is very stressful as, I sure most of you can relate, money seems a bit tight, especially towards the end of the month. Running has actually helped me a lot, which is surprising to me. At the end of the day, when my administration role has left me snow blind from paper work and my mind has gone after rewriting my CV so many times, I feel useless, angry and fed up. However, reflecting back on the day or week those three runs I have completed are golden gems that make me feel like I have accomplished something, and it makes me feel happier.

Reflecting on your day or week could help lighten your mood too. Especially if you mentally hunt for situations or experiences you feel grateful to have had. I speak to a lot of older, isolated people through the Royal Voluntary Service, and it leaves me feeling extremely thankful that I have the ability to run and the opportunity to get out there and do it for myself.

What’s stopping you?

Week One Complete!


I have finally started training! After going through my calendar last week and finding out that the couch to 10k takes 14 weeks to go through, I decided I had better get going!

I will finish c210k in June and from there will continue to run 3 miles twice a week and alternate between 3 miles and subsequently longer runs until October 8th – Half Marathon Day.

Running is definitely all in the mind. I found on the third run of the week I was thinking more about my breathing, counting each in breath and out breath to keep them measured and trying to expand my diaphragm and breathe more deeply, and it seemed so much quicker than the first 2. Thinking ‘I can’t do this’ made me all wobbly on the treadmill and panicĀ a lot more, so I’m aware that I need to control my thoughts a lot more. I have found focusing on a single point really helps, and not the timer.

Also, standing under an air vent is a must as BOY does my face glow after a 30 minute run!

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Running…out of excuses

I have volunteered myself to run the Royal Parks Half Marathon in October, and I have yet to actually start training. In my mind I am a fast, graceful runner, breathing in the scent of nature as I run through a beautiful woodland path. In reality, the fastest I move is from my car to my front door as I scurry in from the wet weather. I have enjoyed two 3 mile walks this week and I have categorised that as ‘pre-training’, who says that isn’t a thing?

I have my running shoes, I have now set up my Just Giving page and donatedĀ Ā£25 of my own hard earned money to confirm my place, now I just need to start. I have worked out a plan. I will start my couch to ten-kilometre run this week I will then be able to run 10k by mid-June. I plan to continueĀ running 5k three times a week after that but swapping the last 5k for a longer run on alternate weeks. Gradually increasing my distance by a mile every fortnight and so I will reach 13 miles on October 8th. Sounds easy, right?

I am quite nervous about this, I don’t want to fail but I know I can walk if I need to. I am probably more worried about succeeding. I do not want to be an annoying half marathon runner, touting the benefits of running to uninterested parties, but I do want to get fitter and feel and see improvements in myself. Hopefully, once trainingĀ begins I will tune out these negative comments.

I can use hypnotherapy here, by allowing my mind to relax and creating a scene where my friends and family are supporting me and cheering me on. Where no one feels I am talking down to them or showing off my running and exercise plan. It is incredible how powerful the state of relaxation is, the inner sceptic is silenced and my dreams of being a light, graceful woodland runner become tangible. leaving me feeling confident and accomplished. Everyone will have their own reasons for not achieving their goals, they will also have their own motivations for accomplishment. If you want to find yours, get in touch using my contact page, I am here to help if you want it.

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5 steps to run a Half marathon

It is Sunday 26th February 2017, due to a family gathering and a tasty dinner I am writing this much later thanĀ I thought, but I am writing it, I am beginning.

I have wanted to lose weight and get leaner for a very long time, it is pretty much in the start of every journal, the resolution of every year and by far the one thing that makes me feel like a consistent failure. I feel I have tried different approaches but I either lose interest or get side tracked, so I am trying something new.

I have chosen to run the Royal Parks Half Marathon on behalf of the Royal Voluntary ServiceĀ on Sunday 8th October 2017. I intend to raise Ā£300 by then for the charity, which provides assistance to people in Leicester age 55+ as they come home out of hospital.

This gives me 7 months to prepare for the 13.1mile run and I am not a runner. I have completed a 5km race for breast cancer a year ago, using the Couch to 5k App, but something clicked in my determination after that event and I just stopped running.

The POA (Plan Of Action)

  1. Firstly, writing here on this public space, committing my intentions to myself and to others in word form.
  2. Understanding my goalĀ and why I want to achieve it.
  3. Undergoing the Couch to Half Marathon Training
  4. Reflecting on my weekly runs using this blog and planning the runs for the week ahead.
  5. Using my own Relaxation Therapy to motivate me andĀ keep me focused every step of the way.

This week I intend to run on Tuesday 28th February, Thursday 2nd March and Saturday 4th March. It will be a challenge and I would love any support or advice anyone can offer me. If you have any questions please comment below and I will respond as soon as I can.

Be Happy, Healthy and Mindful!